Turning over a new leaf is an odd saying. I feel like being single sucks. Anyone who says they like it is just lying to theirself. God put us here to be with somebody and we were never meant to be alone. While I don’t believe that means that we have to be with someone every second of the day it does mean that we are meant to enjoy this life with someone else. It means we are meant to care for another more than we care for ourselves. The Greeks had several words for Love and one of those is the love you have for your partner. We all ‘love’ our family, we ‘love’ our friends, we are supposed to ‘love’ our neighbors; but these don’t compare to the love that we have for that special someone. I am fairly certain I have felt this love for a couple people in my life. I can’t reminisce on those because for one reason or another they are not in my life. I was married once and would like to think it was happy and loving at some point or else why did I say, “I do”? For now and probably until Kingdom comes I will not have happy thoughts because of how it ended; not that it ended but, but how it ended. I have also loved others who eventually felt I was not right for them. Rarely have I loved someone who I decided not to be with. Isn’t that odd.
I would LOVE to find a beautiful woman who I enjoy being around and can get to know just as I know myself. I am confident she is out there but for now I haven’t found her yet. I am only 33 and know I have plenty of life left on this earth, but would like to spend the majority of it not alone. This is not a plea for someone to pick me up off my feet. It is a desire, not a need. I don’t ‘need’ to be in a relationship. I feel if you ever think you ‘need to’ be in a relationship, then you ‘need to’ be single for a while until you figure out why you think that is a need.
Morning 5-minute Random Babble
Side note: In prison, the worst punishment they can give someone is solitary confinement. That should tell you that we as humans are social creatures meant to be around other people. That means in a group as a whole, and in our private lives as well.